Tuesday, August 10, 2021

My Top 8 Heroes of All-Time

 #8
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Justin Timberlake - Yes, Justin makes my top 8 list and for two reasons:  1)  He starred in my second favorite movie of all-time - "Alpha Dog"...  2)  He brought sexyback

#7
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Marilyn Vos Savant - She held the record for the highest IQ ever recorded (this category/record has been retired).  She also has a complete understand of the Monty Hall math problem/situation which she fully elaborated on in one of her columns in Parade Magazine.

#6
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Albert Einstein -  He makes my top 8 because, well, as we all know, he was the smartest person in the history of the World to have ever lived.

#5
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Leonardo da Vinci - A polyglot and polymath, the second smartest person in the history of the World to have ever lived.

#4
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Garry Kasparov - The Greatest Chess Player of all time

#3
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Brett Favre - My childhood hero and the REAL Iron-Man

#2
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This is a tough one.  My #1 spot is easy, I always knew this one.  But #2... well, this required some serious thought... but I'm going to have to say Jesus Christ.  Yeah, I've said it before and I'll say it again... there are many spiritual teachers but ONLY ONE SON OF GOD!  Jesus Saves!

#1
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And now, my NUMBER ONE hero of all-time - Bobby Fischer!  Because, he was Bobby Fischer, the one and only!

Thanks for reading!

- Lizzi

Friday, August 6, 2021

If I Was Given $20,000...

You hear people ask the question, if someone gave you a million dollars what would you do with it?  The idea is, as we all know, that what you would do with a million dollars is what you should be doing for a living.  This question is asked to find out what you should do with your life.  If you would travel if given a million dollars, then you should travel for a living, like..be a truck driver or flight attendent.  Or, you'll hear people ask, if you were given $1,000 what would you do with it?  The idea of this is to figure out the best way to maximize and manage what money you do get.  But, I have been thinking.. if I was given $20,000 what would I do with it.  I mean, who knows, maybe I can win 20 large at the casino.  But, if I got 20 large, I'll tell you what I wouldn't do.  I wouldn't buy a new car.  New cars tend to turn in to pieces of junk 5- 10 years later, and you end up being left with next to nothing.  

If I was given $20,000 I would spend about $2,200 - $3,000 on some flashy clothes and a little bit of gold jewelry.  I'm a bit of a dapper (sort of).  I would spend close to that much to pay off some debt that I owe.  Now, I have about $15,000.  With that, I could buy residency in Thailand.  But, I'm not sure that's what I would do with it... maybe, but probably not.  I would probably then put around $10,000 in my brokerage account and invest in some REITs to get a few hundred dollars in returns every so-often.  Half of what is left would be spent on some computer hardware and software and the other half (about $2,000 - $3,000) would sit in my bank account for emergency funds.  

If I had $20,000 ...I imagine that's what I would do with it.  

I got my Cultured Monk Media business cards yesterday that I ordered from VistaPrint.  Groovy!

- Lizzi 

 


Friday, July 30, 2021

My Amazon Kindle Chess Book

Yes, I uploaded my first ebook that is about chess. Here is the link to my Kindle book - "What You Need to Know Before Your First Chess Tournament".  Please read, rate and review!  All of my Kindle books are available for purchase for $1.75 regardless of the length in page numbers with the exception of my (short) memoir which you can buy for 99 cents.  

Unfortunately, all good things must come to an end and it looks like this saying can now apply to my official chess career.  I don't believe I will play in any more tournaments.  I streamed a video on Twitch.TV about why I'm giving up the game.  Essentially, it all comes down to focusing.  Unless you are an elite chess professional, there's just no money in the game.  Chess has been good to me, I'll still play and broadcast online games from time to time and I willl still keep up the posts here at this blog.

Don't forget to check out all of my web presence through the links at the footer of this blog - "Terlizzi:  Life & Games".  'till next time, friends!

- Lizzi

Monday, July 26, 2021

I Gave In To Consumerism

I got my check from work last Friday. I went out to the mall and Best Buy and bought a bunch of stuff that I don't need. *Sigh* How foolish! I gave in to the American way of consumerism. I learned that the temporary high of buying a ton of stuff I don't need quickly wears off and you are left with a vapid and dull aftertaste. I bought an iPhone 12 with unlimited data, HBO Max, and I also bought some shoes and more stuff for my computer. I didn't need any of it, of course. In my head, however, I had a justification for everything I was buying. What am I to do if I'm not going out buying things I don't need? Isn't that what living is? This is what we have been indoctrinated to believe at a very young age here in America! Well, there are plenty of things I could have done. I have a lot of books here in my apartment that I've always meant to get around to read. Instead, I thought of more books to buy on Amazon. Or, I could have spent that money to pay off part of the loan I took out from my bank a cuople weeks ago! Oh well, lesson learned. I've revised to do better. I won't buy with my next work check those new Ray Ban sunglasses I looked at on Amazon.com. I won't buy more clothing from VANS. I won't go back to the mall for a while.

Tuesday, July 20, 2021

Let's Get Real #LGR

Life is hard. We all know this. I am working around 20 - 25 hours a week now and thought there for a while that I may have bitten off more than I can chew. I'm delivering pizzas in Saint Louis, Missouri and it really sucks! But, we all have to start somewhere. Mid 30's and just now trying to build a resume. But, let's get real! Life is hard! You can't half-ass your endeavours. No, success takes a lot of work. This has been a recent rude awakening for me. I very recently published my first Amazon Kindle book that is about chess. I hired an amazing graphic designer from Africa (check out twenty4hrdesign on Fiverr.com) to design the cover for it. I'm starting to realize that if you're going to do something, it's either go all-out or don't bother at all.. otherwise, you are just wasting your time. It looks as though things are finally starting to work out for me. I've got more money coming in every month and finally working hard to build my brand - "Cultured Monk Media". I recently re-opened the personal homepage - https://calvinterlizzi.com I'm going to start selling "Cultured Monk Media" merchandise when I get a little bigger web prescence and following. I have a couple ideas for my brand's slogans. I still have a lot of thoughts about going into professional gambling... bought a bunch of books on the subject a couple months ago. Yah, sounds so cool! And, obviously can potentially pay a Hell of a lot better than chess. I am in a room from someone's house. I found a pretty good deal. One of my roommates has two dogs. I love animals - especially dogs! Wildlife has always been a fascination of mine.p Anyways, guess that's all. And, sorry it's been so long since I've posted! Life is hard, let's get real! - Lizzi

Thursday, June 17, 2021

Bhoga

 Bhoga is Yoga.  The Bhogi enjoys to live while the Yogi lives to enjoy.  Ultimately both paths lead to the same end, but we must learn to combine the two.  If we have no goal, we will get nowhere.  If we do absolutely nothing to enjoy ourselves in the moment, we will also get nowhere.  To clear things up a bit, bhoga is more the lay life which in part involves more going out and having fun.  While the Yogi's goal is God-Realization before his life comes to an end or perhaps in one of his next incarnations as a human.  We must learn to combine the two paths.  If we strictly follow one or the other we may go insane.  The Buddha also taught the importance of "the middle way", which sort of applies here I suppose.  

I'm almost finished reading Thich Nhat Hanh's "The Heart of The Buddha's Teaching".  This may be the greatest and most important book I've ever read regarding Buddhism.  Yes, Thich Nhat Hanh is the closest human being you will find that is comparable to Lord Buddha.  

I got into meditation right around my 20th b-day.  I went through an inner-transformation that lasted nearly 4 months, but ultimately ended up in a disaster.  I believe I combined bhoga with yoga by spending 5 years traveling North America (2014 - 2019).  I  needed to devote a significant amount of time enjoying myself living life.  Which I did because travel is my favorite activity.  Someday I will see Europe and Asia!

We must follow the middle way.

There will be another day!

- Lizzi

Sunday, May 23, 2021

I Want to be a Professional Gambler

 I went to the casino in Saint Louis, Missouri two days in a row very recently and profited well over 2 grand.  I didn't know you had to pay taxes on casino winnings.  Those bastards ***** me out the a$$.  I had to hand in my ID and fill out a bunch of paper work.  I want to be a professional gambler now.  It sounds so bad ass to me.  Being an arms dealer would be cool ("War Dogs" is one of my favorite movies), but pro gambler is cool enough and a hell of a lot more realistic.  I bought a book today at B&N about Poker.  I don't know anything about poker except that it can pay a lot better than chess ;)  I have some more books coming in tomorrow, one is about probability.  Pro gambling is something I can master all on my own like chess.  I won't need to go to school for it.  I can study as long and intensely as I want - again, like chess.  

I have been to Las Vegas, Nevada one time.  I actually ended up in Oregon after delivering a van to my step-sister and then caught a ride to AZ with a pit stop in Vegas.  My driver and I did a little bit of gambling.  I want to move there (Las Vegas) this Fall (2021). A lot of chess players go into Poker.  Chess and poker both involve a ton of strategy.

35-years-old and just realized what I want to do...

There will be another day!

 - Lizzi

 

Sunday, May 16, 2021

A Recent Victory on FICS

 [Event "rated standard match"]
[Site "Free Internet Chess Server"]
[Date "2021.05.16"]
[Round "?"]
[White "balovzky"]
[Black "cterlizzi"]
[Result "0-1"]
[WhiteElo "1630"]
[BlackElo "1767E"]
[ECO "A45"]
[TimeControl "900+5"]

1. d4 Nf6 2. Bf4 (The London System) g6 3. Nc3 (Now white can play e4.  I wasn't sure how to handle this) Bg7 4. e4 d5 5. e5 Ne4 6. Nxe4 dxe4 7. Bc4 e6 8. f3 exf3 9. Nxf3 O-O (always castle ASAP!) 10. O-O b5 11. Bb3 Bb7 (I was expecting Bxb5) 12. Ng5 h6 13. Nh3 a5 14. a4 bxa4 15. Rxa4 Qh4 16. d5 exd5 17. Bxd5 c6 18. Bb3 Na6 19. e6 Nc5 20. exf7+ Kh7 21. Rc4 (Bd6 looks winning for White) Nxb3 22. cxb3 Rad8 23. Qe2 Ba6 24. Bc7 Bxc4 25. bxc4 Rd7 26. Bxa5 Rdxf7 27. Rxf7 Rxf7 28. b4  (White's fatal mistake) Qd4+ 29. Kh1 Qa1+ and after Ng1, Bd4 wins for Black{balovzky resigns} 0-1

Sunday, April 25, 2021

The Need for Continuous Improvement

Things were going well for me.  I spent 6 years traveling North America (2014 - 2020).  Now my mind is collapsing, so it feels.  I was never happy.  But there was finally some peace.  Unfortunately, I became complacent.  There was more I should have been doing.  There was more I should have been striving for.  I shouldn't have given up the pizza job and left Tucson AZ back in 2018.  I should have been focusing on my physical health as well - join a gym, stop smoking, add in some supplements (I recently started a Super Greens and a protein supplement).  And, I have cut back on the smoking (tobacco).  But, I'm not in very good shape (mentally).  I can't stop thinking about "the narrow gates that lead to life".  I already mentioned in a previous post how much my OCD tortures me.  I start a new drug for it soon.  

We should always be working on improving ourselves in every which way possible.  The search never ends until we've merged with God... maybe even then it still isn't over!  I started reading a Wayne Dyer book - "Change Your Thoughts, Change Your Life".  I'm about seventy pages into it... maybe it's changing my thoughts a little.  Actually, any input into our minds is going to alter our thoughts.  This is where the importance of picking our friends and those who we associate with comes in.

I finished the book of Sirach in the Old Testament today.  What did I learn?  Blessed and wise is the man who fears God!  I also started a book which I would recommend to any Christian - "Philothea, or an Introduction to the Devout Life" by Saint Francis de Sales.  I always try to read as much as I can.  There's not much chess left in my life.  Although, I may fly out to the National Open in Las Vegas in June (or July, don't know the exact date) if my mental health improves.  I'm in no condition to be traveling or going anywhere right now.  All is not well, but I've been worse.  

There will be another day!

-Lizzi

   


Tuesday, April 20, 2021

Update 4-20-2021

 I'm opening up my homepage again - culturedmonk.com  Yeah, I just said I wasn't going to do anymore websites or Youtube videos in my last post, but I've got a lot to say and share with the World - I always have!  That being said, it will still be semi-anonymous.  I'm not opening up a domain in my full name again.

I started going to group therapy here at the home I'm staying.  They drive us to the Outpatient Services in a bus.  I do this on Tuesdays and Thursdays.  Today I learned the importance of getting enough protein if you are a highly stressed individual.  Interesting!  I just started taking protein supplements a week ago.  I bought a few other supplements off of Amazon as well.  I get a lot of stuff delivered here.  Thank you Uncle Sam for that stimulus check!  jeje!  I've bought a lot of supplements because of how skinny I have got.  I'm well over six feet tall, and I weigh 135... I'm wasting away.  I had a psychiatrist tell me I'm feeling like shit because I'm not eating.  Also been buying a lot of books off Amazon.  I'll review some of them here on my blog.  I'm looking forward to reading UG Krishnamurti's "Thought is Your Enemy".  This guy is a genius.  I read 3 other books of his early last year.  He tells us that there is nothing mystical about the natural state - it's a biological transformation rather than a spiritual transformation.  

I started reading the Bible every day.  Going to keep at it!  I had a spiritual friend and author tell me that reading the words of Christ has healing power in itself, reading the Bible can heal you apart from just learning the teachings.  Yes, I want to be Holy.  Holiness is happiness. 

Matthew 6:33  "But seek first his Kingdom and his righteousness and all else will be added unto you"

That's all for today.

-Lizzi   

Sunday, April 11, 2021

It Wasn't ALL Bad

 I came, I saw, I suffered... yes, it's been a sh*tty life.  I had to drop out of High School due to mental illness.  I've never really had a girlfriend.  I still get a lot of thoughts about death and Hell.  I still need large doses of anti-psychotic medication.  But, I've also got to do a lot of cool stuff...like.. taking a train all the way up the West Coast back in 2019 and flying to Quebec flirting with French-Canadian girls back in 2015.  I also won a chess tournament back in 2012.  It wasn't all bad.  Why am I talking (writing) like this?  Because, I have retired from life.  I'm at a group home... going to stay here.. forever!  I had a psychologist always tell me I need to be around people.   Well, here I am.. there's plenty of people here, and I am making a lot of friends.  They're all so friendly.  And I will be able to see a psychiatrist every week if I stay here.

I still have plans for the future.  My father and I are going to Italy next year.  I may fly out to Las Vegas in June this year to play in the National Open.  I can still do things, but I'm still retired nonetheless.  I was actually here back in 2013 during my second nervous breakdown.  I loved it, but got better and decided to leave and live my life.  Again I came back here in 2016 because I remembered how much I liked it so I considered just staying here.  I still felt like I had more life to live so I left.  But, I've done a lot since 2016, and I'm a little older now.  It's time.  I'm throwing in the towel. 

I want to live for God.  But, I feel God just gave me too many problems in this incarnation.  I had too much on my plate.  I'm mad/frustrated with Him.  But I still want to live for him.  Maybe I'll watch some Jesus movies on Amazon Prime sometime.  I wish there was more things I could do online for the World and myself... like promoting wildlife protection awareness or something.  I try doing this on Twitter.  I follow a lot of Wildlife and Animal Rights accounts on Twitter.

I was diagnosed with OCD back in 2013.  They put me on medicine for it.  It worked but I had two grand mal seizures and had to discontinue the drug.  I kept telling my doctor about the "narrow gates that lead to life" and he told me I have severe OCD.  Yes, I read a book back in 2005 called "The Power of Now" by Eckhart Tolle and it really ****ed my head.  The highway to Hell is broad and wide.  Tolle gives no mention of the road that leads to destruction and how broad and wide it is.  I can't stop thinking about how Tolle tells us space and time are an illusion.  Eternity is realizing there is no time.  What if I realize the wrong eternity?  I'm scared.  God help me.  I wish I never picked up the GD book!  (Maybe).  God please help me!   My OCD is torturing me!  I started a new medication for it last month though when I was in the mental hospital.

I tried making a name for myself online over the years... I had a homepage and Youtube channel.  I wanted to be a self-help kinda guy and a philosopher.  But, I'm ashamed of most of the work I did.  Because... I wanted attention.  And I thought I new everything!  I said some dangerous things on Youtube.  I uploaded stuff I should not have.  Yes, I thought I knew everything.  I also wanted to live an unconventional life.  If I can just get my book published I will be satisfied, but no more websites and Youtube videos.  My book is about philosophy, psychology and religion.  I still need to come up with a title for it.  

I have WiFi here at the group home.  Thank God for that.  And my laptop is pretty bad-ass.  I guess that's all for now.

"There is nothing abnormal about a chess player being abnormal.  This is normal." 

Vladimir Nabokov

Thanks for reading! 

- Lizzi