Passion

How much easier life would be if I loved mastering what would earn me a lot of money... if I loved studying something that would get me somewhere.  I like chess, foreign languages wildlife - my three passions!  I've actually been making some recent progress with chess after all these years.  I used to have to force myself to study tactics, now I practice with Chesscom's tactics trainer for fun as well as to improve my game, and I am making fast progress.  My current Puzzle rating on Chesscom is 2300+ ...been climbing the ranks over the past few months.  In the past, I would try it for a few weeks, and if I didn't notice any improvement, I would quit.  Now, I've stuck with it and it has paid off... a lot.  But, you've have to be playing as well, and you have to be studying other books - study anything by Jeremy Silman.  You really need to go at it from all angles.  You'll improve if you do this, I promise.  I'm almost middle aged and am still getting stronger!  This applies to all else outside of chess, as well!  I studied French for Dummies over the Summer (2020).  I thought, I'll read this and then be a Francophone.  No, it doesn't work like that.  Again, you have to go at it from all angles!  I needed to be practicing the French I was studying and watching more movies en Francais.  And studying other French books whilst studying French for Dummies.  

"Chess demands total concentration and LOVE for the game" - Bobby Fischer

I think, perhaps, if we start studying something we love then all the studying we're are doing will help us become even more passionate.  I once had a friend from Italy who told me to find my passion for the game (chess).  He advised me to find my lost love again for chess.  I may have mentioned this in an earlier post... but yes, I think I have.  I just started playing more and thinking about chess more out of my own will and now the passion is back.  No, no quite what is was as when I was a teenager, but it's certainly there again.  

So, apply all of this to French?  Perhaps..  The seed is already there I just need to water it.  Work, come home, study chess, study French, watch a movie en Francais, go to bed, repeat.

I don't have time for women.  They will hold me back.  Nothing against women, I'm just not really a lover boy.  I've said this before (not here but to others in the past).

I need a job, first.. doiiiiiiiii !!!  Hmm...  I can't sit around this all day and do nothing but study.  I'll go insane!  I already feel like a p.o.s. for being a bum.  Not sure, what kind of work to do right now.  I would deliver pizzas first, but my car is not holding up very well.  **** fast food!  Maybe I'll bag groceries or something.  Making money online through web-publishing and what not is too hard!  I tried building an online brand over the years, but no one really gave two sh*ts about what i had to say.  I wanted to be a Youtube star jajajajaja  Every Youtuber does...   

There will be another day!

- Lizzi