How much easier life would be if I loved mastering what would earn me a lot of money... if I loved studying something that would get me somewhere. I like chess, foreign languages wildlife - my three passions! I've actually been making some recent progress with chess after all these years. I used to have to force myself to study tactics, now I practice with Chesscom's tactics trainer for fun as well as to improve my game, and I am making fast progress. My current Puzzle rating on Chesscom is 2300+ ...been climbing the ranks over the past few months. In the past, I would try it for a few weeks, and if I didn't notice any improvement, I would quit. Now, I've stuck with it and it has paid off... a lot. But, you've have to be playing as well, and you have to be studying other books - study anything by Jeremy Silman. You really need to go at it from all angles. You'll improve if you do this, I promise. I'm almost middle aged and am still getting stronger! This applies to all else outside of chess, as well! I studied French for Dummies over the Summer (2020). I thought, I'll read this and then be a Francophone. No, it doesn't work like that. Again, you have to go at it from all angles! I needed to be practicing the French I was studying and watching more movies en Francais. And studying other French books whilst studying French for Dummies.
"Chess demands total concentration and LOVE for the game" - Bobby Fischer
I think, perhaps, if we start studying something we love then all the studying we're are doing will help us become even more passionate. I once had a friend from Italy who told me to find my passion for the game (chess). He advised me to find my lost love again for chess. I may have mentioned this in an earlier post... but yes, I think I have. I just started playing more and thinking about chess more out of my own will and now the passion is back. No, no quite what is was as when I was a teenager, but it's certainly there again.
So, apply all of this to French? Perhaps.. The seed is already there I just need to water it. Work, come home, study chess, study French, watch a movie en Francais, go to bed, repeat.
I don't have time for women. They will hold me back. Nothing against women, I'm just not really a lover boy. I've said this before (not here but to others in the past).
I need a job, first.. doiiiiiiiii !!! Hmm... I can't sit around this all day and do nothing but study. I'll go insane! I already feel like a p.o.s. for being a bum. Not sure, what kind of work to do right now. I would deliver pizzas first, but my car is not holding up very well. **** fast food! Maybe I'll bag groceries or something. Making money online through web-publishing and what not is too hard! I tried building an online brand over the years, but no one really gave two sh*ts about what i had to say. I wanted to be a Youtube star jajajajaja Every Youtuber does...
There will be another day!
- Lizzi
