Keep running in circles... story of my life! I always end up in my GD hometown in Illinois. Nothing ever goes right! I don't want to go anywhere for a long time. I'm tired of all the running around.. it gets me nowhere, just wastes a lot of money. Sometimes we look too far for the answers without realizing they're right in front of us.
I spent the last two days camping in the forests of Southern Illinois. Not much fun for me. The last night my pills made me sick. I spent the whole night vomiting. Those pills do that to me from time to time. I want off of them.. ALL OF THEM. I saw a scene in Pawn Sacrifice (The Bobby Fischer movie) where one of Fischer's team members mentioned Bobby taking a pill.. the other responded that that would be like pooring concrete down a Holy well, yes the priest said that to I believe the attorney. Bobby was weird. I'm weird. Bobby would have never taken any psychiatric medications. I did. BIG mistake. My body is addicted to them now.
I'm getting older, I see many and many things come and go. When I log into chess servers like FICS and ICC, I am reminded of all the people I used to talk to on there many years ago. Some of them died, some gave up the game. Some... who knows??? Those chat rooms were great. I talked to a lot of people on there regularly. Only a couple now that I knew since wayyyy back in the day. Good times.
I'm exhausted.. can't think of much to write right now. I still watch online for upcoming tournaments from the United States Chess Federation. They are all still getting canceled because of the current pandemic. USCF has a new online rating feature. All the tournaments are going online. I don't care to get an online rating... it's just not the same.
I'm just waiting for things to move on...
There will be another day!
thanks for reading
- Lizzi
